Monday, June 14, 2010

More Notes

From my 2007 notebook:

I can give you a more direct communication from my pen than from my mouth.

Everyone thought her beautiful, and yet she always wondered why it was that the leaves always burst with beauty as a prelude to their deaths. Before they fall, brown and completely devoid of life, they leapt in celebration, flowing red and orange and golden and yellow on the branches enveloped by an autumn gust. This, this was beauty, and it was beauty awaiting death. If others thought her beautiful, what was she awaiting?


Notes and Notebooks

I'm going through a box of old notebooks right now, trying to mine them for potential new poems that could grow out of old ideas or visions.

Instead, I've come across all of my Heidegger Language... things I wrote when I was right in the thick of his Phenomenology, when it permeated my everyday. I miss those days.

September 22nd, 2006

"I woke up today thinking of Heidegger, wanting to write down my attunement -- my being's disposition upon awaking from a dream. I'm having a difficult time, however, between all classes and responsibilities that I feel my soul is divided and portioned off to everyone but me. I do not hold stock on my own time, currently. I can't find the small notebook that I used to keep by my bed last year -- maybe I can wake up a few minutes earlier in order to write down my dreams or early-morning thoughts. My attunement at the current moment is almost shying away from the world which is forcing itself upon me in such a forceful way. Something is out of balance. So much is protruding from the background vying for me to dedicate my attention to it and make it a figure. Gestalt! Give me time. I don't have the room, the focus, or the sanity for all these figures to co-exist at the same time, and they are forced to my attention. Let me cast my eye on that which catches my attention, not that which demands it. My attunement in the world is a state of overwhelment. I shy away and retreat to day. The world is too aggressive right now."


Saturday, March 6, 2010

"Deleted IV"

Explode 
in
expectant hope:
Christmas.

That,
or a kind of grieving.



"Deleted III"

You
I

I tell myself in the final moments,
I will try to find 
the words I have
forgotten.


"Deleted II"

The icicled air
and
hours of sun
change is the snail
across the front step.
Our own trails are longest, we, for whom
the only wounds that cease to hurt
are self-inflicted.
Only too often
we bear
but hide
our own.
All we have are fragments.
Perhaps another final line?
Converted churches.


Lines deleted from my poetry:


'Deleted'

For days I
wait
dormant instead.
When 
it is so
a choked sigh
poisoned every next moment
and, 
when I saw you last, 
the weight 
of an intimacy with doubt.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Heidegger, what are you telling me?

When you want to, you can be incredibly obscure, but then that's the point of digging in mines, isn't it?

"  True, as we look through Being itself, through time itself, and look into the destiny of Being and the extending of time-space, we have glimpsed what 'Appropriation' means. But do we by this road arrive at anything else than a mere thought-construct? Behind this suspicion there lurks the view that Appropriation must after all 'be' something. However: Appropriation neither is, nor is Appropriation there. To say the one or the other is equally a distortion of the matter, just as if we wanted to derive the source from the river. What remains to be said? Only this: Appropriation appropriates. Saying this, we say the Same in terms of the Same about the Same. To all appearances, all this says nothing. It does indeed say nothing so long as we hear a mere sentence in what was said, and expose that sentence to the cross- examination of logic. But what if we take what was said and adopt it unceasingly as the guide for our thinking, and consider that this Same is not even anything new, but the oldest of the old in Western thought: that ancient something which conceals itself in a-letheia? That which is said before all else by this first source of all the leitmotifs of thinking gives voice to a bond that binds all thinking, providing that thinking submits to the call of what must be thought."
From Time and Being by Martin Heidegger


We already know everything we need. 
Now all that is left is to remember it.

My Favourite Lines from "Griffin & Phoenix"

Go watch this movie. Please.

"While I'm out, what can I get ya?"
"everything."
"I'll pick some up on the way home."

"I don't need you for any of that. What I need is for you to be perfect. Because we were perfect, weren't we? We made a beautiful little lifetime together. Don't let that lifetime bleed into this."

"I want to stay here. I want to be anywhere you are."


  "I meet many people, both at home and abroad, who somehow believe they aren't good enough to read poetry. Often enough that's how they'll phrase it, meaning they don't believe they're sufficiently intelligent to read poetry.
  I find this profoundly sad, yet I think I know why they've come to such a conclusion. With some older folk it's because a teacher in childhood days, someone who didn't enjoy verse him or herself, took a mallet to hammer rhyming verse into pupil's heads. Little wonder they managed to turn their charges off poetry for ever.
  But more often than not it's because these individuals have read the kind of contemporary poems that are printed in the top literary journals. They've turned the pages again and again, feeling they should have had at least a couple of degrees and a doctorate to understand what's being said.
  I feel sadness and anger when I encounter such stories, and I do so on a regular basis. But I understand precisely what they are feeling, because as often as not my response is no different when I read such poetry. It comes across to me as similar to many of the cartoons that used to be published in the pages of Punch; bewilderingly obscure to leave the reader feeling foolish and the writer superior.
  But if a poem isn't communicating, then what is it doing? And if it isn't communicating something of worth and wisdom, then what is the point? Perhaps it has to do with the fact that our objectives have changed in this post-modern world. In the art gallery we are left wondering, with no context for interpretation, at small piles of brick dust or at light bulbs going on and off. We are making statements about things, nothing more than bald statements which are not intended for interpretation.
  For me, art -- and I think of the whole spectrum of the arts there -- is about asking questions of the society it is reflecting. If it answers those questions then it becomes didactic and polemic, but good art in every age has asked those questions to challenge and in order to move forward."   -- Kenneth Steven.


And best:

  "I have come to think of the poem as a butterfly; I mean the poem printed on the page. It's a beautiful thing, but it's pinned to the page. Think of it as a tortoiseshell butterfly with all those magnificent panes of colour. But the pins are there at the corners; it is being held down. It's only when the human voice comes to liberate the words that the butterfly truly flies again. And somehow every time that happens it will be new, for each time the words will be read a slightly different way, even by the poet."   -- Kenneth Steven.


Monday, February 1, 2010

I have no idea if I wrote this. I think I did. I don't necessarily agree with it anymore, which perfectly illustrates the final point. But I think it is beautiful.



"It is perfectly human to be crazy. Why do we strive towards perfection when man is flawed, or perfectly imperfect? Isn’t this like a circle striving to be rectangular? Wouldn’t it be better and more truthful for a circle instead to know clearly its limits; the curves to embrace and the circular logic to be wary of? The racecar thrives in controlled ellipses, but the branch will snap with too much bent weight.

Maybe we say things to test whether we mean them. Are we allowed room or leniency to test the weight of such experiments? Please don’t believe what I say right now. I’m just trying it out to feel how it sounds in the air. Just go along with it for a while, I may change my mind again."